APATHY
About the sensations that held my throat, about the sadness that was recurring and paralyzing. The sad moments made me want to materialize what I felt internally.
(Apathy Series) Recording internal moments. Photography (2015-2018)
How to capture how I feel?
To answer this question it is necessary to go back to the time when the records were made and even a little before. As a poem by an author that I liked a lot says "The history of melancholy includes us all... I, I turn in filthy sheets while looking at blue walls... and nothingness"._cc781905-5cde-3194- bb3b-136bad5cf58d_
In moments of paralysis, so to speak, I intensely nurtured the melancholy in me for several reasons. The way to get myself out of bed was to try to get out everything I felt through the photo. It was an experience of getting up, analyzing the photo, waiting for the timer, going back to bed and in this movement I ended up partially dispersing everything that was trapped, everything in search of transferring that feeling somewhere._cc781905-5cde-3194-bb3b- 136bad5cf58d_
It was not something constant, programmed, there is a difference in registration between most photos. What unites them is the process and also the feeling.
Maybe somewhere else I'll keep talking about it
(em each image)